December 17, 2005
resetting the clock
I didn't sleep at all thursday night. I finally just gave up and stayed awake. In fact, I stayed awake all the way to 8:00 Friday night.
I didn't start even GETTING sleepy until about noon on Friday, and by then I knew better than to take a nap. I would REALLY be fucked-up if I did that.
All those years of shift work paid off. I decided to play things as if I were coming off a string of midnight shifts and trying to get adjusted to real time again. I stayed awake.
I took another walk. I vacuumed my filthy carpet. I shelled three bags of nuts--- almonds, Brazil nuts and hazel nuts--- and put them in a bowl so that I can munch a handful any time I want to. I played guitar for a while. I lasted until 8:00 PM, then closed my eyes for just...a... minute... as I lay sprawled on my sofa.
I woke up at 8:00 this morning. I had a crick in my neck, my back hurt and my eyes didn't want to focus. But I felt rested and ready for a day of AA in Statesboro. I took a long, hot shower, left home at 10:00 AM and returned at 5:00 PM.
Now... if I can sleep tonight, I might be back on track.
Glad you got some sleep, hope you get back on track soon.
Rob, are you getting enough to eat at regular times?
What I mean is: you need to build a regimen so you can violate it when you want to. You have to have the routine before you can jump off it!
Try having a protein-rich noon meal, then something light and primarily carbohydrate in the evening. I've never had to do what you're doing, for which I thank God, but when I'm trying to reset from jetlag the old farmer system -- heavy "dinner" at noon, biscuits and gravy with milk and a piece of pie for "supper" -- works wonders.
But what's really important is setting times and sticking to them. Your brain is trying to rewire itself, and it'll do that, but you need to give it something predictable to work on or the process gets extended.
My grandma told me once "...you can't sleep because the Lord has something for you to pray about..."
Since that day, I've yet to let insomnia get the best of me. When those late night sheep can't be counted, I get down on my knees in thankfulness, and humble myself for everything I'm worth. Eventually, I get to the point of it all, and I'm back in the bed; asleep before I even realize it.
Gotdammit Rob, I think that no sleeping is contagious. I've been having a bout of it myself lately. This is Monday night and I haven't been to sleep since last Friday night. Hopefully I'll have better luck tonight. Stupid people still piss me off and I've been dealing with alot of them lately. I am surrounded by morons down here in Palm Beach County and it is starting to wear on me. Hope you sleep better than I do.
melatonex. cut 'em in 1/4ths. take 2 hours before bedtime. 4 or 5 nights in a row ought to do it.