December 02, 2005

Fight. And then fight some more. Then you get mean, and you got to fight harder.
But you already know that.

Damn, I get home from work and find you up and about.

This fight you're waging is a noble one and I do hope you stay on top. Notice I didn't say anything about "winning". From what I understand your fight isn't one that is ever won; it's a constant fight.

You're on my mind, brother.

Good job man! I like getting up early too. Around here, the need for money necessitates it, but it's still enjoyable anyway. Is there anything more peaceful than watching the sun come up?

Those cravings are a little scary aren't they? It's amazing how your own body can LIE to you like that...

I'm 7 mos sober now. For the first 3 mos, the cravings were a lion to be tamed. After that, not so bad. The monster only gets outta the box now if I have a really bad day.

It gets easier, Rob. I promise.

Rich is right - it gets easier. I remember those nights.

Use your head and hang tuff.

Good job, pally. I'm rootin' for you!

The failure rate on detox is high. I frankly don't know many who made it on one try but if anyone can do it, you can Rob. You're too stubborn to fail.

We're all rootin' for you, Rob. And we know you'll beat this because your own evil big voice is a damn sight stronger than that evil little voice you were hearing.

Hey, Sugar. It snowed here last night..(4 in the friggin am gal that i am) Everything is soooo friggin snowy and white. Pristeen almost, cept we know whut lies under neath it all, don't we. Is ok...is beautiful anyway and tomorrows another day and next the nother minute.
Teaspoon of sugar for the muskley cramps, Sugar, them dayum dayum nervous legs drive me crazy.

I hope you know that we're all proud of you for resisting the urge to drink! I was wondering, do you have anyone like a sponsor that you can call any time day or night when you have cravings like that?

I have a couple of "emergency" numbers to tide me over until I get a REAL sponsor on Monday. I didn't need to call anyone last night.

Weren't no booze in the house.

Oh man, what happens when someone give you a bottle of wine for Christmas? How do they tell you to deal with that?

"Just take ONE drink. Just ONE, that's all... Just one LITTLE drink."

You know that's a lie. That ONE little drink can put you right back on the path to self-destruction.

My husband finds picking up reading material makes his eyes heavy when he can't sleep -- doesn't work for me cause I stay up to finish the book!

Baseball (except the playoffs) always puts me out.

I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Just hold on, you stubborn old fart. You can and WILL beat the monster.

Just remember- one drink is too many , a thousand not enough.

Good for you.

Hell, that's what time I get up every day for work.

Hi Rob, try doing your sugar stuff with meals only, and then eventually cutting it out completely..... helps tremendously with cravings. A very wise alcoholism counselor told me that 21 years ago, and I found it to be so helpful. I'm really glad you're going to AA, and that you will be getting a sponsor. For me AA was the "easier, softer" way, as there is so much support there, and I didn't have to do it alone anymore. I'm loving reading your posts. Thank you.

Keep up the battle, Rob. Hold on tight, and you should come out the other end of all this doing just fine.

Them cravings will come and go for the first year. Don't let them get the best of you. When you think you are craving alcohol, do something right away to take your mind off of it. You did the right thing. Keep on doing it. Calling your sponsor would be a good move in a situation like this. A good sponsor would not mind the call no matter what time it is.