November 24, 2005

Stuffing and Stuff

Thanksgiving can be a grab bag of emotions, can't it? In the past, I've dreaded this day because I knew I'd be excluded from the big family gathering. Not this year.

What's changed?

The big thing - my mom and I made up. For those not in the know, I'd told her to fuck off (hey, I'm her daughter and did exactly what she would have done in the same situation) a couple years ago and no amount of apologizing could undo the damage. Sure, I had plenty of reason to burst forth with such profanity, but I shouldn't have. Anyhow, after two and a half years, we finally made up this summer. Even though none of us have spoken about Thanksgiving plans this year, I don't feel like an outsider anymore. Funny how that works, eh?

As well, I decided that Little Dude could spend Turkey day with his dad. Normally, I take my son and daughter out to Wild Animal Park and spend the day with them out in the fresh air, being thankful for the glory of nature and my children's company. So, LD will be with his dad and my daughter will be with my sister.

Me? As much as I'd like a big turkey dinner with that fabulous stuffing and those green beans, pumpkin pie and whipped cream, I've decided to finish up a little project here and then maybe head out to visit with friends after.

It may sound boring and it probably is. That's okay. I'm cool with it.

Ain't it funny how being at peace with yourself can make all the difference in the world. The really cool thing? Our buddy Rob has been hard at work discovering that it's possible for him. I have prayed a lot that he succeeds.

I hope that each of you find peace, too.

Happy Thanksgiving!