Gut Rumbles

April 06, 2005


As I was riding home from my visit with catfish today, I heard an ad on the radio about Mother's Day. My first thought was, "I've got to think of something nice to give mama."

Then, I realized that I don't have a mama anymore. Damn. That thought hit me like a brick right in the head. Tears welled in my eyes. Mama has been dead for three weeks now.

I've still got some adjustment to do.


You should write more stuff about your mother, and less about these google berries or butt berries or what ever you called them. Go visit your grandma for inspiration....

Posted by: Bonita on April 6, 2005 04:14 PM

I agree with Bonita. Write more about mamaw and go visit mommie as much as you can. She loves to sit and tell stories. Have her tell you some and post about them. Though the dingle berry post was good disgusto-entertainment, I think your readers would be a little more interested in some of your sentimental stuff. Just a suggestion :)

Posted by: Sam on April 6, 2005 04:31 PM

It will take time. I was half way through dialing my folks phone number to wish my dad a happy birthday two months after he had passed, and caught myself. The week before father's day, was absently thinking about going over to have steaks on the grill. And sometimes it will sneak up on ya when you least expect it (that never stops, though the frequency seems to drop off over time). Don't know if there is any adjustment needed. Perhaps on this mothers day if your heart is ready for it, your *present* to mom, will be in paying honor to her memory. Just a thought.

Posted by: Guy S. on April 6, 2005 04:50 PM

My grandpa died of Lou Gehrig's disease a little over ten years ago. We were close, and I miss him all the time. When he died, his wish was to be cremated and his ashes sprinkled in Sitka Sound, in Sitka Alaska. As a family, we went out in the boat and did just that. Every year, either on his birthday or on the day that he died, I go buy a single rose, go to the ocean, and drop that rose in the water and say a prayer for him.

You'll find something like that, something you can do once a year, or just whenever you want to. It'll make your heart happy.

Posted by: Alaska Kim on April 6, 2005 05:32 PM



Posted by: Maggie on April 6, 2005 05:34 PM

You've got that right, Sam! And, if you go with him, take a video camera, to record your Mommie's cackle and the wrinkles around her eyes, and the fun of the stories told. It's your legacy, story telling, capture it! Cause soon she will be silent too...

Posted by: Bonita on April 6, 2005 05:46 PM

For Christ's sake, your Mamma is still with you! She never left. Neither did mine!
Mammas stay with you the rest of your life.
How the good-god fuck did you think you got to be the way you are? Your Mamma, that's who!
On Mother's Day just go and do something, no matter how trivial, that you know your Mamma would have liked you to do.
She will appreciate it.

Posted by: Rattfuc on April 6, 2005 06:28 PM

RATTFUC's on the right track. So are some of the others.
Come Mother's Day, get some flowers and visit her grave. Pretty it up some and have a nice chat with her. (captive audience there)
Most people will not give you a second glance cause they are there for the same thing.
Then go visit your Gramndmother. Maybe visit her first and see if she wants to go with you. Make a picnic out of it.
Been making my own visits for over 20 years now. And maybe I AM crazy. But nobodies complained to me yet. Especially if they are smart.

Posted by: Wichi Dude on April 6, 2005 06:42 PM

Was driving down the road in my community. Slow and easy is the norm where I live and I came upon a woman who resembled my mther who had passed about 5 months before. The tears overwhelmed me to the point where I had to pull over and cry it out. I don`t think they ever leave us, it is different in how we will relate to them though.

Posted by: arathorn on April 7, 2005 12:48 PM
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