Gut Rumbles

March 13, 2005

off to the rodeo

I'm showered, shaved, dressed and as ready as I'm going to get for today's festivities. I hate this shit. I just hope that I can hold myself together through two hours of "visitation" at the funeral home. Mama would want me to make her proud.

I'll do my best, but I won't enjoy it.


Our hearts go out to you. Be strong, and think of the people here, behind you, giving you our support.

Posted by: og on March 13, 2005 12:19 PM

My thoughts are again with you today in your time of grief.
Cry if you need to cry Rob, there's no shame in that, but hold your head high and be proud that you are your mother's son. I'd give anything to have had the sort of relationship that you had with your mother. I know she is very proud to have been your mom.

Posted by: dawn on March 13, 2005 12:36 PM

My sincere condolences on your loss, A-man. I know what it's like losing a parent, especially a good, loving parent. Know that there are those of us out here who care and understand. I believe your Mama was very proud of you and your brother, that she loved you dearly. You always have the love, it can't ever be taken away, it was gift from her to you. God bless you and comfort you, now more than ever. I read you every day and have come to appreciate you and your writing. Take care, my friend.

Posted by: Aquila on March 13, 2005 12:46 PM

I think your mama would want you to know that anyone there will understand perfectly if you have to let go for a moment or two every once in a while. She wouldn't want you crying for her of course, but she'd understand that tears are a release that even a strong man sometimes has to take.

Posted by: McGehee on March 13, 2005 12:46 PM

Hopefully there will be enough of her really true friends there with whom to share all the good times, including a few giggles! Take away nothing but the good memories, Rob.

Posted by: MommaBear on March 13, 2005 01:16 PM

Hopefully there will be enough of her really true friends there with whom to share all the good times, including a few giggles! Take away nothing but the good memories, Rob.

Posted by: MommaBear on March 13, 2005 01:16 PM

Prayers are with you.

Posted by: Symph on March 13, 2005 01:43 PM

Our prayers are with you.
I second Aquila's thoughts. You can never lose her love. It is one thing that we all leave as our legacy.

Posted by: Marie on March 13, 2005 05:50 PM

Don't comment much here, but pretty much read you every day. Just wanted to send you my condolences. Don't know much else to say that hasn't been said better by others. Just damn, just damn.......


Posted by: oldgeek on March 13, 2005 06:00 PM

It's 6pm and I'm lighting a candle for you.

Posted by: Stevie on March 13, 2005 06:02 PM

Dear, I'd be there if it were possible. I'm just glad that Samantha finally made it. You're in my heart.

Posted by: Mamamontezz on March 13, 2005 06:54 PM

I don't blog but I have been lurkin' round here fer a while. I'm 57 and an unreconstructed son of the South, like you. We been down a lot of the same roads and I can tell ya that there's no pain like losing your last parent. You feel that you are truly alone now, and that's true in a sense. You feel like you have to grow up now, but you don't, really. I keep waiting on you to find that reason to wake up each day. You got some life left. Do something with it. Put the past behind you and forgive yourself for being who you are. It's their problem, no yours. I hope that your tomorrows make up for your yesterdays. If it all evens out in life, you got a lot to look forward to. Best wishes and remember that your Momma still lives in your heart and there she will never die.
(BTW, I'm on number 5 and she's the best thing that ever happened in my life. I remind myself that I had to get through the other four before I found one worth keeping.)

Posted by: roy on March 13, 2005 07:44 PM

My sincere condolences on your loss, our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Posted by: Sandy on March 13, 2005 08:45 PM

Peace to ya, Rob.

Posted by: Sardonicus on March 13, 2005 09:07 PM

Our condolences Rob. Thoughts and prayers are with you and yours.

Posted by: Moogie on March 13, 2005 09:59 PM

I wish I were able to pay my respects in person. My heart goes out to you and your family...Treasa.

Posted by: Trease on March 13, 2005 10:37 PM

I just wanted to say how sorry I am to hear about your mother. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

Posted by: Wolf on March 13, 2005 10:46 PM

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Posted by: ViperGirl on March 13, 2005 11:57 PM

There's no shame in crying for your mama

Posted by: Matt on March 14, 2005 06:48 AM

Rob, I don't know how to say this. I've been there and know that nothing I say will ease the pain. I don't Blog but will say this; I love you, your stormcloud, and your Momma. Have you made arrangments? Let your loyal fans know.

Posted by: Ed on March 14, 2005 07:50 AM


I'm sorry to hear about your mama. She was a great woman, and I'm sure that you made her very proud.

My condolences.

Posted by: Jay G on March 14, 2005 08:37 AM

My sympathies, Rob. I'll be praying for you.

Posted by: Jenna on March 14, 2005 10:59 AM

Condolences and sympathies Rob. May the power of the prayers said on behalf of you and your family make a postive difference in your life.

Posted by: Florida Bill on March 14, 2005 11:03 AM

Rob, Just de-lurking to say that my heart goes out to you and your family at this time. I went through this last May and I know what you're going through. Just know that your mama knew you loved her and you know that she loved you and nothing will ever change that. Some days will be worse than others but you'll be ok. And your mama will always be there with you. Missy

Posted by: Missy on March 14, 2005 11:17 AM

I buried my dear MIL just after Christmas. I loved her very much and my husband really loved his Momma. It is still very fresh in my mind and I know what you are going through. I can only offer you my deepest sympathy and pray that you get through this ok. It is going to be different for you and your grief is going to sneak up on you at times. Embrace her memory as that is really all you can do.

Posted by: Anastasia on March 14, 2005 12:38 PM

my sincere condolences, I have buried both my parents and a husband at only 48, people you love dying just sucks, there's nothing else to say.

Posted by: Jackie on March 14, 2005 02:04 PM

I'm so sorry.

Posted by: VHMPrincess on March 14, 2005 03:19 PM

I'm glad sam and stacey made it, so you won't be alone today. Your mama is proud of you for being there, she wouldn't care if you can't hold it together. Just do what you think she would have wanted.

Posted by: caltechgirl on March 14, 2005 04:46 PM

Candle's still burnin'....
Gonna leave it lit til ya post again.

Love you and I hope yer doing okay....

Posted by: Stevie on March 14, 2005 05:18 PM


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