Gut Rumbles
 

September 27, 2004

i fucked up

Looking back on the very colorful tapestry of my life, I can say, with full assurance that I am correct, that I fucked up a few times. Of course, if you tell me that YOU never fucked up, I'll call you a goddam liar. If you've lived an interesting life, you've fucked up before. That fact is a given.

Ya gotta jump, head-first, whoo-hooing all the way, into deep water sometimes if you have a sense of adventure.

I DO think about some of my most glorious fuck ups and wonder NOW why I did that crap at the time. Trust me... it seemed perfectly logical or at least REASONABLE when I did it. Hindsight carries a very high "oh, shit!" quotient with it, but you're not blessed with hindsight when you go flying off that cliff making whoo-hoo noises all the way down. You just do it.

I don't know what's gotten into me lately. I'm dwelling on existential thoughts, wondering about the true meaning of life and pondering my squandered youth. (That's a fucking LIE! I didn't "squander" my youth. I may have mis-spent it, but I enjoyed the hell out of blowing my fortune! I would go back and do it again tomorrow.) Anyway, I blew some wonderful opportunities that I regret today. I did some things that I wish I hadn't done.

I fucked up. But I have some damn good memories.

Comments

Dude, we absolutely are related in some way.
We are so much alike it's almost scary sometimes.

Besides the truth of this post , we have one other reeeally important thing in common... neither of us can die saying we weren't loved, by someone at some time, whether we really knew it or not.

(Just let that sink in a minute and I think you'll feel exactly what I mean...)

Posted by: Stevie on September 27, 2004 04:12 PM

Good judgement comes from experience.

Experience comes from bad judgement...

Posted by: Rich on September 27, 2004 04:16 PM

When I was growing up, my middle name was FUCK UP.

Posted by: Catfish on September 27, 2004 05:51 PM

Sheesh, I thought most folks had 20/20 hindsight. And a PHD from the school of hard knocks. Thought that was why God gave us a sense of humor. So we could look back on our life, and laugh about it.

Posted by: Guy S. on September 27, 2004 06:03 PM

I'm STILL doing fucked up stuff at age 62.
It's a built-in genetic disease or some such shit.
I've done it all my life. And I love it.
But I hate getting caught. I have to promise to be good. But I can't.

Posted by: Dan Pursel on September 27, 2004 09:09 PM

anyone who can brag about his "glorious fuck ups" with a smile on his face is a helluva man.

Posted by: BJK on September 28, 2004 02:07 AM
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