Gut Rumbles

August 19, 2004

i'm scared

I don't like to admit it, but I am frightened right now. I fear no man and I don't fear dying. I've done a lot of rough and tough shit in my life and I've NEVER backed down from a fight. I've had my ass whipped and I survived. I've stood up to rough cobs who threatened me with a pipe wrench, and I survived that, too.

But my ex-wife is going to gut me like a fresh bream in court. That's GONNA happen, and I know it. And I can't do a damned thing about it. Well, I can refuse to abide by the ruling and have all the power of government trained against me, which is what I intend to do. I've got my money pretty well-hidden, so they can take ME, but they can't take that.

They'll take my Crackerbox and lock me up like a criminal. If that's the way it goes, it goes that way. My freedom is important to me, but if push comes to shove, I'll sacrifice everything to stand on my principles. I am built that way. I'm a Cracker, but I still have a lot of hillbilly in me. Fuck 'em. I just won't do what they say.

When Quinton was a little boy, he sometimes had nightmares and woke up crying. I held him and told him that he had nothing to worry about. Daddy would protect him. "There ain't no booger-man here, Quinton, and if there WAS, I'd snatch him up by the neck and throw him outta this house. What am I afraid of?"


"That's right. What else am I afraid of?"

"Nothing, Daddy."

"That's right, too. And you remember that any monster who comes after YOU will have to go through ME first, and that ain't gonna happen. I never saw a monster in my life that I couldn't whip. You go on back to sleep now and don't worry any more. I'll make sure that nothing bad happens to you."

I meant every word that I said to him. At that time, I never saw a monster that I couldn't whip.

I'm looking at one now.


Why not go live in Costa Rica for a while? Sounds better than prison to me.

Posted by: dickie betts on August 19, 2004 10:14 AM

I'd pray for 'ya, but I don't believe in any manner of God.

Good luck regardless.

Posted by: Shem on August 19, 2004 10:25 AM

She realizes that you'll be in an extremely volatile position when you're cornered, right?

Posted by: Laurence Simon on August 19, 2004 10:50 AM

Vader will kick her ass for you. Im not scared either. I will use my Sith powers and the dark side of the force.

Stay strong, listen to Tom Leykus, and maybe that old Twisted Sister song "were not gonna take it".

You sound like a good father.... I believe you can win this one.

Good luck!

Posted by: vadergrrrl on August 19, 2004 11:26 AM

The monster can whup you. It can even eat you. But it will never digest you because you're a tough, stringy old bastard that doesn't know how to quit. Even when you tried to quit it didn't take.

Rob are you sure you aren't part MacGregor?

Posted by: McGehee on August 19, 2004 11:57 AM

"I don't like to admit it, but I am frightened right now."

Fear is a great motivator, Acidman. Give it your best shot.

I've been through a similar upheaval in my life (just a few years ago). I too lost my mini-farm with my chickens, ducks, goats, cats and dogs. I, on the other hand, was the female who gave it all up. He cheated; I packed up and left. Just like that. I didn't ask him to leave because I knew he never would and I didn't have any fight in me at the time. I had just lost my father and brother 2 months prior to finding out he cheated. I was too deep grieving my losses to be able to fight. So I turned tail and ran. Literally gave him whatever he wanted just to get him the hell out of my life. But one thing he DIDN'T get...that was my kids. And today, the kids and I are doing GREAT.

Didn't mean to go off on a personal tangent there....just wanted you to know that a lot of your readers have been in your shoes. It's a hard road but it's DO-ABLE. Keep your wits about yourself, keep Quenton's needs first and foremost (which with you, is a given). I know you'll fight like hell to maintain your right to be a father to your son. The other crap is meaningless.

My best to you .... I will pray for you also. I DO believe in God. Stay strong, Rob.

~ A Faithful Reader

Posted by: Kate on August 19, 2004 01:43 PM

Godspeed Acidman. Please, never give up. Don't let that bitch take you out.


Posted by: Tim on August 19, 2004 02:24 PM

Any man can be a father, but it takes a special man to be a daddy.

Posted by: Catfish on August 19, 2004 02:29 PM

Just wanted you to know this damned Yankee is pulling for ya. You've got balls man, plus principles. That's what this country was built on. You've been royally fucked over by that bloodless cunt and just about everyone else. Fight on man and never surrender!

Lord Drago

Posted by: Lord Drago on August 19, 2004 03:46 PM
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