Gut Rumbles

October 01, 2003

my thoughts

I've been blogging for 21 months now. I almost quit once because I felt totally stressed out by it. But that experience allowed me to take a step back and realize what I really wanted to do here.

I just write. I don't want to go fang and claw in competition with other bloggers for popularity or links. I got caught up in that nonsense once and it really fucked me up. I'm not doing that crap ever again.

Don't get me wrong. I like my readers and the really clever comments I receive from them. That "ceaseless quest for adoration from people who don't know me" is part of my motivation and I'm not going to lie about that. I like attention. I put up with the trolls even though they piss me off. I don't know why anyone wants to be a troll, but I really don't know why I want to blog the way I do, either.

I've used this analogy before, but the longer I write this blog the more I believe that it's true. The internet is a big, vast, surging ocean. I like to stand on the shore, watch the waves and stick a note in a bottle. I then throw the bottle into that big, vast, surging ocean on the outgoing tide just to see where it might land.

The note may be read, or it may not. Maybe nobody ever finds the bottle. Maybe somebody does and passes the note to other people. Maybe, after they read my note, THEY start throwing bottles in the ocean, too. That can happen.

I just like blogging a lot better since I stopped whoring for links and checking the Ecosystem every day to see where I stood in the rankings. I could give a shit about that anymore. What I put here will be here every day, just because I want to do it.

Pick up that bottle you found on the beach and read the note inside if you want to. Otherwise, don't. It really doesn't matter one way or the other. I'll still keep putting the notes in bottles and tossing them into the ocean.

That's what I do.


lots of fans out here that like 'current events'

Posted by: Wind Rider on October 1, 2003 10:53 AM

I guess I'll just have to keep picking up those bottles.

Fucking litterbug!

Posted by: Ralph Gizzip on October 1, 2003 11:20 AM

I love the way you fill your bottles.

Posted by: Liz on October 1, 2003 12:02 PM

I admire you for not caring what your readers think and writing just for yourself. But I have read your early stuff and think that your writing style definitely has changed. For example -as I have mentioned before - you break your thoughts off into smaller, more digestible chunks. And thus, your writing has improved.

And so has mine. I am happy about that. But I do find myself affected by what people write in my comments section. I have been fascinated by experimenting with trying out different things to write and seeing how people are affected by it.

In any event, the comments make my blog all the more richer. I dig the feedback.

Posted by: sugarmama on October 1, 2003 12:12 PM

Sugar, I am amazed that you have not experienced a troll infestation by now. You are blunt and opinionated (which are qualities that I admire in you) but a lot of little slimeballs can't handle blunt opinion.

I hope that the suckfaces never come and bug you. But if they ever do, I think you can handle it.

I LIKE YOU, Sugar. And I have for a long time.

Posted by: Acidman on October 1, 2003 12:31 PM

Come on Rob. Get a clue. You troll the trolls by answering them. Reposting their comments on your blog, calling them nasty names. Remember "picking your scabs?" IF you really didn't want the trolls you'd ignore them. They would go away. But you provide so much humor by railing against them. The most amusing things on your blog are your rants, refutations and ridicule of the trolls. The troll comments are the most interesting thing that happens on it. You're not too cool when it comes to managing cyberspace. You could take some clues from others who've gone before you. I know that's not your style, but really, man. Get on with your life. Let trolls be trolls. And some of the things your readers leave for the trolls to read only encourage them to come back just to see what kind of nonsense they leave the trolls to feed on. Sorry to have tok be so blunt about it, but you are your own worst enemy.

Posted by: Troll on October 1, 2003 12:42 PM

Hmm, who is Troll? "Troll" has a point there. If you ignore someone, they will go away faster.

I have had a few minor skirmishes but I have dealt with them quietly, sometimes through email. I definitely handle the situation differently than you do, but your ripping apart of various trolls is entertaining and funny for your readers. Don't ever stop. (Grabs Kleenex.)

I like you too, Acidman. Always have. :)

Posted by: sugarmama on October 1, 2003 01:04 PM

I apologise for TrackBack pinging this entry three times. I'm having problems with my MySQL database (rebuilds).

Posted by: Nicholas on October 1, 2003 03:32 PM

Because of you (mainly) and several others, I'll be standing on the beach tossing bottles soon. Why? - because I want to. I just have to finish setting my stuff up.

I appreciate the responce to an email I sent earlier.


Posted by: sam on October 1, 2003 04:17 PM

Uh Rob, have you seen the latest Bud Light commercial? A guy is throwing message bottles into the ocean, hoping for a response someday. Cut to a castaway picking up the bottle hoping for a drink, all he gets is a message. "Why do you torture me, Rob Smith of Rincon, GA?" Fade back with dozens of empty Bud Lights on his tiny island. Final scene; Mr. Castaway looks up Mr. Smith. "Hello Rob" Ends with a punch to the face of Mr. Rob.

Not that this will happen to you. The people you piss off are pussies anyway and wouldn't resort to evil, evil VIOLENCE.

p.s. I took a little poetic license with the names, of course.

Posted by: don on October 1, 2003 07:21 PM

But troll-baiting is so much damn fun! And the trolls always bite!

Posted by: shell on October 1, 2003 08:03 PM

Trolling is like setting a paper bag of dog shit on fire on somebody's porch. If people keep running out and stomping those bags, they'll keep doing it.

I don't consider myself a troll, but I still don't know why I comment. But eventually I get bored and go away anyhow.

Posted by: sm@rt@ss on October 1, 2003 11:31 PM
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