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January 13, 2006

temptation

Recondo 32 called yesterday and invited me on a road trip. He and his lovely wife, Georgia, are heading down to Key West today. He asked if I wanted to go, too. I said, "YES!" right away. I LOVE Key West.

Later, I thought again about the idea. Sure, I love Key West. Sure, Recondo and Georgia are my good friends and I always (well-- MOST of the time, anyway) enjoy their company. But I'm not so sure that Key West is a good place for me to be right now.

In rehab, I was told over and over to avoid situations where alcohol was flowing. I was told to stay away from places and activities that I associated with drinking. To do otherwise might trigger a relapse.

I scoffed at that idea. I didn't expect the entire world to stop drinking just because I did, and temptation is EVERYWHERE. Hell, I can't go to the grocery store without seeing cold beer and bottles of wine. Neon signs saying "Budweiser" and "Miller" flash at me from the windows of convenience stores. I have to pass Randall's Liquor Store almost every time I go anywhere.

No, I couldn't weave a cocoon around myself, so I haven't tried. Besides, I've already BEEN in a lot of situations where alcohol was served (the Catfish Blog-Meet Extravaganza was just ONE example) and I didn't drink. I probably could go to Key West and stay sober, too.

But this is one time where I'm not going to take the chance. Key West is too wild, too crazy and too... tempting. I've gone 84 days now without drinking any alcohol. I don't intend to drink today, either. But if I were in Key West, I might decide that just ONE wouldn't hurt, and I know what happens to me after that decision is made.

I chickened out. I called Recondo last night and told him that I didn't want to go. Actually I WANTED to go--- I just didn't think it was a really good idea. Recondo understood. Maybe in another couple of months I'll be ready for Key West. But I'm not taking any chances right now.

I've got a good thing going and I don't want to blow it.

Comments

Solid decision. The town's not going anywhere

Posted by: gordon the magnificent on January 13, 2006 10:39 AM

Wise choice. Not that you couldn't have resisted the temptation but there is such a culture of buying rounds at the Keys, heck even if you do drink, you end up drinking more and spending more on booze than you intended when you go out. It would be a drag to have to keep explaining why you don't want to accept their generous offers of free booze from all the folks who are entertained by your conversation and want to buy their "new buddy" a beer.

Posted by: Libby on January 13, 2006 10:50 AM

Good choice at this time, methinks.

Posted by: Jim -PRS on January 13, 2006 10:53 AM

Gold Star! We're so proud of you.

Posted by: Indigo on January 13, 2006 10:56 AM

Good choice. Rational thinking. Might be unexplored territory for you. Keep it up, though. I'm an idiot and I've been straight for going on 19 years now.

Posted by: Chris on January 13, 2006 11:00 AM

Difficult decision well made! Sometimes it's tough to have to say no to friends. Glad Recondo understands. 'Tis a slippery slope.

Posted by: joated on January 13, 2006 11:03 AM

Good for you, Rob. Knowing Recondo and Georgia, they'll support your decision. And congratulations on 84 days. Well done!

Posted by: Omnibus Driver on January 13, 2006 11:34 AM

Good for you! I'm very proud of you. You, darlin', are not as fucked up as you think . In fact you taught me a lot about smart thinking. Keep up the good work.

Anytime you need a non drinking companion... I'm available.

Posted by: livey on January 13, 2006 11:47 AM

I knew you was a smart MF.

Posted by: Sticky B on January 13, 2006 11:59 AM

One day at a time, amigo. Since Roscoe is bionic, you should be using THAT as your recreational drug. I'm sure you have no end of ladies to help you out with that.

Posted by: og on January 13, 2006 12:15 PM

Good for you, Rob. Keep up the good work.

Posted by: Grouchy Old Yorkie Lady on January 13, 2006 12:44 PM

Budweiser" and "Miller

But that's horse piss...and you don't drink horse piss...LOL...good call...I am soooo proud of you for managing to stay sober...ya look good honey!

Posted by: Kel on January 13, 2006 12:54 PM

Like daddy use to say, Age doesn't make you an adult, decisions do.

Posted by: jamesoldguy on January 13, 2006 01:07 PM

{{{Rob}}}

Posted by: Juliette on January 13, 2006 03:43 PM

You have no reason to go, the all nude hotel is closed, Cat

Posted by: Catfish on January 13, 2006 04:17 PM

that catfish cracks me up!!

you are the man. congrats on your 84 days, you rock.
don't fear the blogmeet, tho. i want to see you see the freaks, you will love it.

Posted by: shoe on January 13, 2006 05:40 PM

There will be a time when you can do things like that again; I'm sure of it. You made the right decision I think for now, though. Congrats on 84!

Posted by: Lisa on January 13, 2006 07:17 PM

You'll probably know when it's time. If you think now's not, it ain't. Yay us! I haven't had a drink today either.

Posted by: Larry on January 13, 2006 07:26 PM

Good call. Go when you want to go. I'll go with you. I'm a Shirley Temple Man, I'm told.

Posted by: Velociman on January 13, 2006 08:12 PM
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