October 17, 2003
I've done a lot of physical work in my life and I've walked many a mile in work boots. I played guitar every day for five years and damn near deformed my fingers from that experience. I could strike a kitchen match on the callouses on my left hand back then. My hands still don't seem to belong to the same person today. Left hand and right hand look completely different.
Now my callouses are on the inside. They don't show, but they exist. I've had my heart broken, my manhood stolen and I've looked the Reaper square in the face and lived to tell about it. I live all by myself now, I have lots of money and I fear no consequences. I am more free now than I have ever been in my life.
You know what scares me today? NOTHING!
I like having that feeling. Nobody can hurt me, ever again.
You're wrong. There are still two people that can hurt you - your mother and your son.
If nothing can ever hurt you again, then nothing can ever truly touch you again either. Being vunerable may not feel "good", but being loved feels wonderful. After all, happiness is the best revenge.
...(Dear Fate, Please disregard that last sentence Rob wrote. Those are not famous last words and he was not trying to tempt you. He was merely stating his opinion.
I've been shot at and missed, shit at and hit. What's to fear?
At your age? Your probably right. nothing can hurt you. You sound wordly who has been around the block, and can deal with the nuances of life.
Excepting maybe real old age....living to be a fossil to the point where someone has to wipe your butt.....that is scary.
Do the Grand Canyon before you get to be a fossil though.....I did the four corners and I thought I landed in heaven. God is truly awsome....I never saw art work until I saw the GC.
Before I become a fossil I want to do the whole N.W. especially Yosemite.....
You know what scares me. Fucking liberals that aren't dealing with the Islamic Extremist hordes.