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August 03, 2003

weekend duty

I may be on the shit-list at work after this weekend. I didn't spend a lot of time at the plant performing the "weekend duty." I got the numbers, plugged them into the computer, sent them off, made sure nobody was dead in the last 24 hours and split back to the Crackerbox both days.

That's not the way weekend duty is supposed to work. I should have burnt about half a day out there, walking around looking worried and important. I needed to furrow my brow and show my dedication to the company just by BEING THERE when I didn't have to be.

My company appreciates people who do that, who live breathe and die for the cause, except when they become "manpower issues" and are let go for the sake of synergy, competitiveness, right-sizing or some other corporate bullshit. I've spent 23 years of my life working there and they may drop me like a hot rock tomorrow. I've seen it happen too many times.

I once was a very ambitious man. I put a lot of my heart and soul into my work. In return, I was given a paycheck and a few promotions. That sounded fair to me at the time.

But everybody and everything I did that for are gone now, and Acidman ain't working himself into the grave so the company can throw a wreath on me and give somebody else my job when I'm gone. I am through with climbing. All I want to do is hang on now. And I'm really not that interested in hanging on.

Don't get me wrong. I'll earn every paycheck I receive, but I'm not going to make that place my life anymore. Doing that cost me two marriages and everything I held dear to me. I've spent more of my life at that plant than I have in my own bed. I spend a LOT MORE time with operators than I do with my son.

This weekend, the truth finally dawned on me. That's not my life anymore. It's just a fucking job

Comments

Congratulations Acidman.....welcome to the rest of your life; and may you enjoy it as it should be.

Posted by: AnalogMan on August 3, 2003 10:53 AM

fantastic attitude, Acidman. LIVE.

Posted by: pril on August 3, 2003 01:06 PM

Well spoken, for a company man. I'd guess that your change in attitude has less to do with wisdom, maturity and a deepening appreciation for life and more to do with your hourly devotion to pumping up your pecker.

Posted by: bjk on August 3, 2003 01:22 PM

A good friend in Japan figured this one out recently. His company decided to reduce pay for most employees to "improve the company position". He puts in his 40 and does whatever he wants on weekends -- no more Saturdays to impress the manglers.

Posted by: goobler on August 3, 2003 04:38 PM

a-MEN, A-Man!

Posted by: dragonfly jenny on August 4, 2003 11:45 AM

Whoa. Are you the same Acidman we've been reading for all this time?

Posted by: Keith on August 4, 2003 10:09 PM

HOLLY SHITTERS BATMAN! I had to reply to this one. Damn how I do so agree. Why is it that most everyman seems to go through this and feels that they are the only one. I am only 37 and I feel this way. Its like the system wants to push you through and shit you out without so much as a thank you. My father served 30+ years with ATT and came out the same way. He couldn't wait for retirement to tell everyone to kiss off, he gets the retirement and leaves and they just replace him with the younger newer model. Now .. Quad Bypass later, he hangs out and plays golf and watches the occasional movie yet calls me at 8am in the morning in my office to see how I am doing and telling me he just picked up his dinner at Dennys and he is off to drop off the movies at blockbuster. Sad statement on life. Damnit, get out and do something go see the world, spend your money enjoy it. Dont sit at home and complain like a friggin tard. I dunno, guess I am young still. But I have to see that I agree. Reading my blog you could see the same thing.

Posted by: Julian on August 6, 2003 11:34 AM
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